- Mood:
Passionate - Listening to: Idk..
- Reading: Vanishing Acts
- Drinking: Teeeaaa as per usual
So you might not know it, but you mean the freaking world to me, Travis. It’s only nearly been two months, but I’ve felt more comfortable and happy in this relationship than I have in any other one I’ve ever had. I love that I can be a total weirdo around you and you join me, and I love the fact that I can tell you anything and everything and you don’t judge me. But one of my favorite things is the way you look at me. Like I’m the most beautiful girl in the world, like you could only ever want me. You’re the best person I’ve ever met, you know. Probably the most beautiful too.
I remember when we met in advertising. We both had no idea that the other was as stricken with our beauty as we were with theirs. Flirting with you was the most fun I had that year, remember that time we almost held hands? We were comparing our hand sizes and you shifted your hand a little, so your fingers almost slid through mine. My heart was racing so fast, I thought you could hear it. After class I ran to Karole and told her everything at hyper speed like a five year old. Your smile pulled me in, but your laugh pushed me over the edge. It was like music, it made me smile to hear it, because I like when you’re happy. I always stole your stuff, just to have an excuse to touch you. To feel your skin against mine.
You pulled me through a lot even though you had no idea. A lot of crap was going on with everyone. But you, that is. I could never keep a straight face around you. It was the little things you did that kept me together, like smiling at me, or telling me the next big development of our ‘Australia Plan’. I remember being really jealous of that girl Vanessa, because she always acted like you guys were best friends, and I wanted to be the one that knew everything about you. Sometimes, late at night, when I was crying and wishing for anyone to save me I’d think of you and smile. Because, even though I was falling apart, you were alive and that fact alone made me feel that much better. You were and are my sanity; I know I can run to you whenever I feel like I’m losing it again.
I love how gentle you are with me, the way you hold me like I’m some rare fragile being that you can’t even breathe on wrong. The way you’re always stroking me, my back; my tummy; my hips; my hands it drives me crazy, but in a good way. I like feeling so connected to you, we don’t even have to talk. Just each others presences are enough to nearly erase our woes. I love the way you kiss my neck and press you mouth to my shoulder when I sit in your lap. And I love wrapping my arms around you, feeling how warm you are. I like closing my eyes, and just listening to your heart beat.
The fact that you are alive is probably one of the only reasons I’m alive. When I look into your eyes, this weird feeling fills me, and I have to look away before it becomes too overwhelming. I think maybe its how much I love you and want to pounce on you all rolled up into one feeling and my little body can’t stand it.
This boy has changed my life.
IIIIIII JUST GOT A NEW TABLET!
Exhilarated
Love Dazed
Longing
